The past few weeks have been quite difficult. I’ve been experiencing a flare of symptoms, having to push through them to create a magical Christmas for my kids was a challenge. Everything has felt difficult and the resurgence of COVID has amplified my worry and my pain.
It’s been 4 weeks constant back problems, today was the first day I’ve felt relief with the help of more meds then I like taking. But if that’s what it takes to be able to get myself moving again, then that’s what I’ll do. I tried so many things, ice packs, heating blankets, stretching, yoga, walking and while I’m sure they all helped, it wasn’t enough. I am also worried my biologic medication has stopped working, but that a whole other topic of conversation.
One thing I don’t think a lot of people talk about is how pain affects your state of mind. It takes a toll mentally to not be able to take care of things the way you want to or join in the activities others can easily do. To find yourself getting increasingly frustrated, sad and sometimes even angry. Positivity fades as the weeks progress.
I’m thankful and lucky to have a few good friends who also have chronic illnesses, it’s helps so much to have someone who truly understands what you’re going through. So my advice for this post is to find support from people in similar circumstances. There are many support groups online and hopefully one day in the not too distant future, in person.
On a positive note, the switch to online school was no where near as bad as I was dreading it to be. I’ve also had the chance to build lego and play board games with the kids, which is something fun we can all enjoy and I can easily participate in.
I’m happy the kids are home, it’ll give us more time to get Lilly her second vaccine and me my booster dose.
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas and I wish you all good health and happiness in 2022!
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